sobs...

i hate it... i really hate it... i hate seeing the ppl i love going against each other... i dont like it.... i feel torn in between ... my heart breaks... i hate it when i have to choose.. why cant i be with both of u... why if i go with her.. u wont be there... why if i follow u... she wont be there... why???????
Can u heart the sound of my heart breaking????? like its shattering into millions of minute pieces.. just like TT...
Everybody is going against each other... it so depressing.. reading ppl blog one by one.. each one getting more fierce then another... why???????? maybe if the blogging stopped.. will this get better?????
nah... its just a wishful thinking on my part... haiz... so depressing..

i hate to see her feeling so sad and sleeping late cause of it... feeling depressed about it..
i hate seeing her with her blood red eyes.. looking as though she is going to cry
both are diff "her" k

cant stop those tears coming.. they just keep coming... then my eyes turn red..cant go downstair with red eyes... what should i do...maybe i should just sleep in my brothers room...

Cant really tell a lot of ppl my feeling.. they have their own problems too.. but i'm glad i have my cousinz.. they feel for me.. i tell them everything.. well almost everything.. maybe their the only ones who really listen,, well corne and ken listens too... and i'm thankful of tt..sorry for not telling... didnt want u to worry about me.. so sorry ken..

playing ryan cabrera's true over and over again...it kinda helps a little.... hahaha.. me and my music...

dont worry about me.. i will become happy again... i just need some time.. hahah,... cause i know my mood affects some ppl around me.. so i will get happyy again.....

my life is so screwed now...